Thursday, January 14, 2010

A Bonus Day

I am a Goddess, and today I tried to play a little bit of catch up.  Well, last night when I chose my intentions, I started, and then it continued.
  • Put in request for Personal Time for Appt w/G*****
  • "Research" M***** and other hearing specialists.
  • Go through 1 magazine.
  • *Bonus - Stay Positive - Smile as much as possible (when appropriate).
When I chose/set my intentions last night, I could not help but add "Stay Positive" again.  It has worked once and been a challenge the next time.  This time, to aid my success, I noted smiling.  Almost every time a person smiles, she feels better.  If it is a fake smile or done to appease another person, it does not work, but most other times, it is a positive thing.  As I do work in healthcare, I had to add "when appropriate" so as not to encourage myself to smile when I need to be more solemn when speaking with a patient (it happens occasionally that a patient gives off the vibe that he will not take me seriously if I smile).  Smiling really brightened my day.  I am still sick, I am still overworked, I am still single, BUT I smiled and felt better.  It is an amazing thing to be able to be positive when stressed.  It really helps.

Early this morning, I sent my time off request to my boss.  It is only an hour and it is to gain control over my migraines which she understands are bad.  About a month ago (I think?), I had bad migraines that controlled my life for a week.  Due to their severity, I took two and a half sick days.  I would have preferred the entire week off, but was concerned over my workload and went to work with migraines.  I called out on Monday (or Tuesday) and Thursday, but went to work on Friday with another migraine.  Not even halfway through the day, I told my boss that I was waiting until lunch, but taking the rest of the day off.  I could not function.  That day, I had an urgent appointment with the neurologist and was put back on migraine meds.  For the next few weeks, everytime my boss saw me, she asked how I was.  She eventually told me how bad I had looked that day.  Although I never can tell if my boss likes me or not, I know that she is concerned for my welfare and that is a good thing.  It also means that she should easily approve the time off request.

The final two intentions are why this post is coming so late.  The other day I went through 1 and a half magazines.  Today I started with the half magazine, did not know where "1 magazine" would end, so I finished another magazine, going through another magazine and a half.  After finishing that, I got online to research hearing specialists.  It turns out the doc I noted has his office too far from work so I will probably need much more time off or to go to another doctor.  I want to go to a hearing specialist because over the last few years, my hearing has deteriorated.  I can hear, but, whereas my sister will hear music in a restaurant and recognize it immediately, I rarely will be able to hear the music or it is too low to recognize.  Even the volume on the television needs to be much louder that it should be.

One last thing.  I mentioned the windshield wiper fluid problem to my dad and we will look into in most likely on Saturday.  He had filled the fluid 2 weeks ago so it should be fine.  It does not make sense for it to not work and it shouldn't be empty.

I am a Goddess, and I am going to bed.

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